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All is good.

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Things have calmed down and i never felt happier... summer break has its merits.

I will be leaving DA permanently, cause it worked so well for me O.o

thank you, all who were my friends during this period.

Thank you to all my watchers, too.

If anyone wishes to find me, you can do it on my blog, twitter or FaceBook.

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I'm so so so sorry i haven't been around. Real life problems are arising. Read on, i urge you.

I have no idea what i am doing. Which is... hard... for me to admit. For the first time in my life, i wish i could ask for help... and i have no one to turn to.

I don't even know where to begin.

I miss my best friend. She means the world to me... and recently, (like 2 years ago) she started to drift away from me. I know highschool isn't her fault, i didn't even expect her to not make friends there and be totally isolated. I guess what i'm saying is... I'm too fucking jealous that she spends time with someone else than me. Yeah, I know she's not my possession or anything... i just miss her, that's all.

In all honesty, if it wasn't for my boyfriend... i'd have gone mad right about now. I love him so fucking much. And i know you guys probably hear that phrase a lot (who am i kidding, no one reads this shit anyway) but I truthfully and honest-to-...red love him. He doesn't hear that enough, he never will. If you're reading this, thank you. You're making my life worthwhile.

One of my best friends hooked up with a shitty girl whom i hate. And she stole him from us, although he denies it. He might read this, but frankly i couldn't give less of a shit if he found out my true feelings. Theo, we hate her. For the love of red, come back. Again, that's probably really selfish of me... but i COULD NOT care less.

I don't know what i believe in. Until now i had believed in myself and it all worked out fine but now... I know i don't fit well into christianity or budism, but i can't really say i've looked into the matter. I believe that IF there is a higher power, he/she/they are not sinless, and if they do love us, the love us equally, regardless of age, sex, race and sexuality.

I'm waiting for summer... that's all i can do for the moment. Also, I won't be active here for some time. My sub is expiring tomorrow and i don't know if i'm ready to face DA's shallowness again. By the way, i HATE V7. You won't be able to find me anywhere besides my email. (Not that you'd want to...)

So, i guess this is it. If any of you read until this far... It really means a lot to me and i thank you with all my heart. If not, meh.

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I'm turning 17.



That is all. :heart:

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Winners of Love Life contest held by ObscuredPhotos and UnseenPhotography


First Place
Meow Means Hi by TheNinjaCat
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"One of the main reasons I love life is because I get the opportunity to share it with the most amazing animals in the world. They have captured my heart and become such an important part of my being. Vladimir recently came bounding into my life with a courageous heart that immediately captured ours. He was rescued from "death row" at our local pound, something an animal should never have to experience. But now he has a permanent, loving home and it makes me immensely happy everyday that his home is my home and I can give him the life he deserves!"


Second Place
Five Years of Freedom by *we-were-left-behind
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"The joy it must be to celebrate the fifth year free of breast cancer."


Third Place
Solitary Bliss by *Kitiwake
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"This photo encompasses why I love life, and especially where I live my life...I live on the Island of Newfoundland, surrounded by the Ocean and the creatures which inhabit the waters...This Photo of a whale playing on a summer day says it all: Wide open ocean, solitude, and peace."


Honourable Mentions

Life in Life- My first love by IRAtheIV~ Books. Do you remember that child who has read and read, within reading entered a new world? The child who couldnt stop, burned in the fire of fantaises. And even now, always, a book offers us another dimension of life...mostly before sleep.

Forever Young by MusMustMess~ One reason I love life are the short moments you catch someone doing something while they thought no one saw them. Like when you see a grown-up making a silly face in a mirror, or someone talking to his pet, or even a young couple exchanging that private "I love you" look.

:thumb160026182:~ I think people forget to appreciate nature. The reason I felt so... blown away (haha) is because I felt so small. But in a good way? Waterfalls are so pretty~ And once you're up close, you realize how strong they are. It's hard for me to say...

Melodie by Der-Alter-Mann~ What do I love in life?

MUSIC


There is a song for every mood, lyrics for every situation.

Music never betrays you.

Look Up to the Light by Dani-the-Naiad~ I feel like it speaks about loving life because I believe life is all about observing what we have been given. I love to look at the sky and feel like I am a part of this big world. I love to look at the sea and feel my soul wash in and out on the sand. I love to feel the wind in my face and know that I am free to live my life to its fullest.




And also... TWLOHA


Stamps and Clubs

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Stamp - I Love My Nikon by darkaion Make a Difference 3 by 3wyl Homophobia is Gay - Stamp by padfootsmyhero
I Support Imagination stamp by c3ph31d wolf stamp by war-armor


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:bulletred:Remember this?:bulletred:


Well, I couldn't do all of them... so... i'm on a diet now because of ulcer XD but eh, i'll survive. What i DID do, though, is managed to LOVE my life. I absolutely adore it. I figured it all out.

You know... i love that feeling of uncertainty when you know where you would WANT your life to be heading, but aren't sure if it's gonna make it there. It feels so human, so... mortal. I decided where I want to go to college. Weeell... not where, but what i wanna do, at least ^^. Which is awesome.


I WANT TO GO TO PHOTOGRAPHY IN COLLEGE. :la:


And for that, I need a portfolio (as you may have seen in my poll). What i would be EXTREMELY and UTTERLY grateful if you do is to give me a few links to your favourite pieces of my gallery. i BEG of you.

Also, if you have any info about Colleges that have a photography major in the UK, please could you tell me about it?

Lastly, I would like to thank some people who have helped me enormously throughout this period.
People i want to thank


:bulletred::icon3wyl:3wyl she's one of the greatest people i've ever talked to... and has such a big heart/soul/spirit/mind. Thank you for your advice and all your comments and replies. They help a lot.

:bulletred::iconashworthcee:ashworthcee she's my best friend ever, since like... primary school. 10 YEARS OMGG!!!
Without her... I'd lose half of my photos due to lack of models -.- (which is still severe, but she keeps me going)
And thank you for being there when i need you. Even when i think i don't, i still actually do.

:bulletred::iconraddytzz:RaddyTZz he's my hot fiancee whom i love so much it's illegal. Thank you for watching over me, putting up with all of my fits and intervening when i go off-track. I love you.



So.. that's about it. Also, thank you to all of you guys who comment, watch me, answer polls, fav my stuff. You're the reason my confidence doesn't go plunging down. THANK YOU!!!



Oh Oh! on my active watchers poll i got 10 answers... out of 65 -.- which is... well, not disappointing, because i had expected it. Oh well. Could you please comment on this journal so i know who to feature in the news feature i'm planning? ^^ YUP!


Thank you for reading!
Oana:heart:




Stamps and Clubs

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:iconobscuredphotos:
:iconmusic-matters:
:icondeviant-mentor:
Stamp - I Love My Nikon by darkaion Make a Difference 3 by 3wyl Homophobia is Gay - Stamp by padfootsmyhero
I Support Imagination stamp by c3ph31d wolf stamp by war-armor


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